Before Being I found myself frequently looking at life through this lens of scarcity. There was never enough of anything. Certainly not enough time and I always felt there was never enough of ME to do all the things. I lived in a constant state or urgency. While I desperately wanted to be present, my mind was always a million other places.

I was scared of my future because I didn't think my dreams were possible. I knew that I wanted to build my dream life and was ready to do whatever I needed to make that happen but I felt lost with where to even begin. I was overwhelmed and paralyzed. I was wishy washy in my commitments and felt disappointed in myself a lot because of that. I was overthinking every action and then not doing anything.

I was feeling like I was destined for so much more but kept choosing the same systems and way of being that wasn't fully supporting me in taking steps to create the life I desire. I wasn't able to pinpoint why I wasn't just going for it and taking real action.

Before this experience I was struggling with a sense of community, and a place where I felt safe to authentically self-express. I doubted my ability to grow

I felt miserable, hopeless, trapped, and paralyzed by my life circumstances. I was constantly squashing down my needs and feelings to appease others and could not bring myself to work on my life goals. I felt like the life I wanted was impossible.

I felt lost, stuck and unfulfilled and was seeking encouragement to pursue a new path.

I was struggling with stress and anxiety, overwhelm, analysis paralysis, fear to take action, and uncertainty in direction. My biggest fear was of judgment. I doubted the words I said and how I showed up in the world.

Lists and methods of organizing the madness, extending my work hours to do more, apps for organization, adding more coaching certifications, plant medicine.

I tried every healing modality you can think of. I tried 2 other coaching programs. I tried pushing through the fear and doing doing doing. I tried doing the most but then got burnt out each and every time. No change I was making was sustainable.

I used to get excited about an idea and pursue it for a while but I often wouldn't stick with it or take enough action to create real progress. I also used to seek out a lot of self-help and manifestation resources which were informative but not inspiring me to take enough action.

Self-help books, therapy

I consumed self-help content non-stop, reading book after book, watching video after video, trying to find the magical answer that would spur me into action and fix all my problems. I self-soothed by routinely escaping into mindless, time wasting activities, only to feel crappy and unfulfilled at the end of the day because I hadn’t done anything meaningful to work towards my goals. I had also been in therapy for years, which was supportive but I felt like I was talking in circles about the same problems week after week with no idea how to take action on them.

I hadn't tried anything yet. Joining the BTC program was my first step out of the rut.

I tried reading self-growth books, working with coaches, many courses, creating a routine but they never stuck, lots of different productivity methods.

Not having enough time.

Because of my unsteady commitment and lack of lasting results with things like this in the past, I was scared that I wouldn't fully show up for this program and therefore feel major regrets by the end of it, like I didn't get my money's worth. For context, this was a BIG financial stretch for me, I had never invested this much in myself before.

Worrying that I wouldn't make enough changes as a result of the program for it to be worth the investment.

doubt, doubt in my ability to grow

The cost and the fear of failure. I’ve never spent that much on anything before and knowing my tendency to run away and avoid my problems, I was afraid of being pressured or shamed if I couldn’t keep up or if I didn’t have anything to show for myself at the end of the experience.

I was unsure if the magical transformation or results that were highlighted in the testimonials could become true for me too.

I was unsure if it would really help because I thought I tried most everything. I was afraid that I would be even more disappointed at not getting results because it was the biggest investment I had made for myself so far.

I am slowing wayyyy down and watching my life blossom. My intention for years has been to live my life like a prayer and for the first time, I finally feel it <3

I am genuinely excited to create my dream life. I no longer fear the future. I love the person that I am and celebrate my growth every week and month.

I've truly embraced my potential and firmly believe that I have the ability to manifest the life I desire. I am more committed than ever to actively pursuing my dreams.

Joining this community was by far the best decision I have ever made. I let more love into my life and made a community of like-minded friends who inspire me.

I no longer seek out self-help for answers. The answers already live within me. I've learned how to question low-quality thoughts effectively and accept more responsibility for my life.

I’m more present and self-aware. Slowing down was a life-changing lesson that helped with that. I remind myself that it’s okay to walk at my own pace.

Life is sweet and purposeful! Stress and anxiety reduced significantly. I have made huge strides in my fear of judgment and am more in action.

My physical health was extremely compromised due to high levels of anxiety for years. If I didn't invest, I may have not slowed down and I fear the domino effect of health issues would have only continued. I could see that I would be struggling to do much of anything if my health had gotten worse.

If I didn't invest in this experience, I would still be so caught up thinking that nothing I do will ever be enough. I would never have realized that my dreams were possible and that I have all the tools I need to create them. It might have taken me years to get a consistent writing and sharing practice instead of a few weeks. I would have never felt like

It's possible that I never would have become a coach. I might have continued to make excuses and focus on why it wasn't the right time or why I couldn't pursue that path.

My career, my friendships, my dreams and desires...my LIFE

I fell into a major mental rut right before this started. Three years of misery had reached its peak; I was lethargic, couldn't focus at work, constantly thinking about how miserable I was and how desperately I wanted change but too terrified to do anything about it. If I hadn't invested in this experience, I likely would have spent another three months miserable, lost, resentful, and stumbling in the dark through life. I wouldn't have made nearly as much progress on my career goals as I did. I would still have no clue how to execute on my life goals. I would continue to blame others and mentally torture myself with low quality thoughts.

I would still be in the planning and training stage of becoming a coach. This experience accelerated the process of being in action in light speed.

The cost would have been my life. I would be in the same spot as I was 3 months ago and the same fears I had 3 years ago, which were keeping me from showing up and being in action.